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I’ve been MIA here since I’ve been blogging in tumblr. Lately I realized that it’s kind of stupid writing there since everyone just posts pictures.  I guess it’s not for people who write a lot.  It’s also weird because it irritates the hell out of me if someone I know reads my blog.  I guess I’m more personal than I thought. Honestly, I just love blogging because I don’t want to collect journals anymore. I’ve been writing in my journals as early as I can remember and it’s getting messy. Blogging is a smart way of journal keeping.

Sweet

I feel like child today, imagine I cried for a box of cinnamon rolls. Well I think it’s reasonable and perfectly understandable. A day ago my mom gave me a box of cinnamon rolls. I ate just about half a slice and shared the other half with my little sister. I don’t really eat a lot and my younger sister often tells me to limit my sweets since it can cause me diabetes. Yesterday I saw the box of cinnamon it was where it was when I left it and I was glad to see it untouched (that was what I thought since I never opened it)

I woke up early today since I have a dentist appointment. I was barely awake, when I saw my younger sister carrying the box of cinnamon. I can’t remember exactly what I told her but it was like “hey that’s my cinnamon” but she just ignored me. She probably thinks I was sleep talking. So when I got up, I was so hungry that I was frustrated to look for my cinnamon rollsL. My uncle told me my sister packed the cinnamon for school. She didn’t leave any slice of it for me. When I saw the empty box of MY cinnamon rolls I really got heart broken.

I cried after seeing it empty since I’m really grumpy in the morning. As the Filipino saying goes “Magloko ka na sa lasing wag lang sa bagong gising.” My dad told me that he’s going to buy me a box of cinnamon rolls after my dentist appointment, if and only if I hid it from my sistersJ. True enough after my dentist appointment I finally had what I was craving for. Now, this is my story of a sweet success.  

Temporary High

During the start of the semester, I wrote down all of the grades that I wanted to see on my class card and my goal general weighted average. I also wrote my favorite quote by Napoleon “success begins with a fellows will; it’s all in the state of mind.” I kept annoying my dad that I’m a scholar even though I wasn’t. I kept acting like a nerd, admitting that I really enjoy studying when I use to act so cool. So when I got my class card, I kind of freaked out. Coincidentally, I almost got all the grades that I wanted and I also got my goal general weighted average. It’s pretty creepy to start my Halloween because I also got my scholarship. I guess it’s really true, if you want something so bad the universe conspires. Say what you want to the heaven, admit it to everyone and you will get what you want. Success really is all in the state of mind.

Sleepless nights

I am honestly having the best sembreak one could possibly dream of. Going out to eat almost everyday, having movie dates, hanging out with friends, doing my favorite hobbies sigh.. what more could one wish for. This week, really has been by far the best week, until today, that I’m beginning to see my grades. I saw it in our school’s website. It’s really not yet done: out of 9 subjects only 2 subjects has a grade. 

A class card with low grades is a great Halloween scare for me. It’s scarier than a horror movie. No matter how hard I study for a semester, I can never stop worrying about my grades. I guess I always expect too much. I guess my dreams are just too big for me. Maybe, worrying will always be my favorite hobby.

Thursday will be my judgment day and up until Saturday I kept waking up early, bothered. I kept computing my imagined general weighted average over and over again, hoping that I’ll reach the 1.50 quota. I kept coming to church praying and thanking God for the semester. I hope I can reach my goal. I would not be at peace until Thursday.

Sembreak

I am enjoying my very much deserved sembreak. Since I want this vacation to be efficient I made a to-do-list of everything I want to do. First on my list was to eat out. Today I went out with my dad to eat at a private and simple restaurant. I super love it. Studying so hard made me really deprived to go out T_T. For a busy person like me, going out is truly a luxury. 

Funny story, while we were eating, my dad wanted to follow up our order because it took quite long than expected. I told him “Sanay ka kasi kumain sa fast food”. Looking around, I saw many people trying to follow up their orders. I guess this just shows that we are in an instant generation. Everyone really wants to have everything insantly. It’s like people don’t know the meaning of waiting and the virtue of patience. Haayy..

After eating, I went to the bakery and bought everything that I was craving for at the moment: cake, pastillas, macapuno. I really don’t care if i get fat or whatever. I will eat what I want as long as I’m young and sexy haha.

I super enjoyed this day and it’s all thanks to my dad for treating me out. Moments like eating together or sitting in the passenger seat with my dad is the best. I always think it’s special and I absolutely cherish it. This sembreak I hope to have special moments not just with my dad but also to my mom, sisters and friends. It’s actually in my to-do-list already.