Sleepless nights

I am honestly having the best sembreak one could possibly dream of. Going out to eat almost everyday, having movie dates, hanging out with friends, doing my favorite hobbies sigh.. what more could one wish for. This week, really has been by far the best week, until today, that I’m beginning to see my grades. I saw it in our school’s website. It’s really not yet done: out of 9 subjects only 2 subjects has a grade. 

A class card with low grades is a great Halloween scare for me. It’s scarier than a horror movie. No matter how hard I study for a semester, I can never stop worrying about my grades. I guess I always expect too much. I guess my dreams are just too big for me. Maybe, worrying will always be my favorite hobby.

Thursday will be my judgment day and up until Saturday I kept waking up early, bothered. I kept computing my imagined general weighted average over and over again, hoping that I’ll reach the 1.50 quota. I kept coming to church praying and thanking God for the semester. I hope I can reach my goal. I would not be at peace until Thursday.